Month End Doubts

Don't know why ......... maybe because of the long holiday imbalance mood ( where most of the people do not need to work today but due to my new job, not entitled for leave yet, forced to come back to office to sit here for no reason ), that's why feeling a little bit down and no mood .............

Luckily there is a place still for me to release my unhappy feeling - My Blog..........

Today, 30th April 2007 ( Monday ), last Thursday was holiday due to the Agong's Installation Day, and come back to work on Friday, one day, then Saturday and Sunday off. Today again come back to work for one more day, tomorrow and Wednesday off again due to the Labour Day and Wesak Day, sigh !!! Really sick.................

For my many years career life, I have never encounter such working experience yet until I joined this company, where I shamed to claim myself a professional conference / exhibition organiser. I asked myself not only once, but many times, what is this company doing ? Why such things can be happened ? Why such a big events and just less than a month to go, participants ask for Registration Form, our answer is : " No form available yet ", I asked around in the office with 5 colleagues, same answes I got from them : " No form one woh, how much arr ? I think RM 350.00. Don't know which account they should bank in the money to us woh, try to give some excuses to delay lah, if can't tahan and they keep on asking the form from you, you refer them to so and so loh. " Oh my goodness ! How can this happen in my company ? My god ! Really feel shame to tell people where I work and what I do............. never have such feeling all this while in my career life till now.....................

For a 2-days conference, due to own personal reason - want to go home early and don't want to stuck in the traffic due to the location of the hotel - Jalan Tun Razak, 1st day the programme finished at 3.45pm and second day, programme ended at 12noon. Still gave a very nice reason : The participants must be very happy one coz they can also go home early or go shopping. Come on lah ! People paid one thousand plus to attend the conference and due to all these unprofessional reasons, my god, still feeling happy and not guilty at all. The worst thing is, the amended final programme was NOT sent to all participants until the first day of registration.

I won't know until one particiapnt came to ask me : " Why you all amended the programme without notifying us ? Somemore remove some well known speakers where we paid purposely to hear / learn from him. And somemore two full days conference, now cut till 1 full day and purposely drag it to two days where 1st day ended at 3.45pm and second day, only 2 session, one before morning teabreak and one after morning teabreak. " My god !!! This kind of comment / feedback, if you were me, how would you answer them ?

I don't know how to answer them but if I were the participants, I know how to ask my question : " Can I get the refund from you for such a lowsy organisation of programme ? " I bet you, if I were the participants who paid the registration fee of thousand dollars from my own pocket to attend this conference, I sure make noise and swear I won't be back again for any events organised by the same company. I will for sure black listed this organiser.

But what to do ........ they don't care, and they do not need to care too........ events line up from Jan till December, full, the whole year calendar was full already !!! They don't care on the participant's feedback coz they do not need to care for, but business still coming in blindly...................

On the other hand, own benefit always come prior to job or professionalism. During teabreak or lunch time, the staff were first to eat, eat even more than the participants, no problem, the best thing is they ' ta pao ' in front of the participants, before they finished the food, before the teabreak or buffet lunch ended, they start taking out their tupperware, their plastic, their big envelopes, or whatever containers to pack food, in front of delegates, in the counter. My goodness ! Now only I know why such staff will still not fired by boss or why still got such unprofessional companies available in this 21st Century to serve ? Now only I know ...............

My deepest sorry to all the participants and really felt shame about it. And to all the sponsors.................

Another question I always asked myself, from the first day I joined this company till now, 30 days, I am still asking the same question : " How long can I stand in this company ? How long can I tahan here ? " Ha ahahaaa... frankly, I also don't now the answer now. I consoled myself with this : " No problem one, think for long, think for future, think for far, the only advantage of this company for me is, when one day, I got married, my priority has no longer at work, I don't find for job satisfaction, my only concern is my family - my babies and my hubby, then I will for sure love this company very much, coz no responsibilites to bear in any mistakes, just pinpoint. As long as your ' tai chi ' skill is good, when make mistakes, you know where to point to, then it's okay already......................."

This is the only excuse that I could find for the moment to ask me to stay still in this company. See lah ! Let's keep an eye and see lah, how long I can stay ..........
And for what reason I stay ............. maybe another way to keep me with the company is to get marry faster, settle down faster ............ so, dear, maybe my boss shall thank you with this ..............

Too long stay in a same environment, too long work in the same working culture, 13 years working in the same organisation, 12 years, 10 years, 7 years, 4 years, 3 years, 2 years, 1 year ............... I felt so lucky I saw this problem and I decided to have a change after 5 years working for the same boss............... huh ............... really feeling so lucky ! Otherwise, I will also become so ' karat ', not even know how to insert a column in Excel.......................

All the best to me and friends who read this, also say a prayer for me in your heart loh .............