It has been long time, I didn't write to you, my hubby
It has been quite sometime back, we both last write to each other
It has been more than 177 days back, I didn't received your love letter anymore
Letters seems lesser and lesser since we married
Words becomes verbal
Using hand to write becomes using mouth to communicate
Still remember what I have told you earlier
To me, a piece of paper and a pen, is my best friend, my best communication tools
Rather than using my mouth, without notice, un-intentionally, someone might get hurt
Not purposely, it's unintentionally........................
It's me, words always come out faster than my thinking
Wise man says, think three times before you throw out any words from your mouth
Maybe this is the reason why I am not wise enough, hahhaahhahaha................
Dear, I am very very happy this two weeks, especially this week
Don't know why, maybe because we have a real good and relax weekend last week, maybe
Even my friends, can also feel my happiness through my msn with them, ha ! They are all so concern, sensitive and alert on my emotion
Or maybe I am too true for them to sense it ................
Since we got married, I think this is the 4th time you went oversea for business purpose
Too long, it has really been too long, you never leave for so long
Too far, it has really been too far away you go
I missed you, I missed you so much, I really missed you
Time seems passed too slow, time seems freeze till I doubt if my watch is not functioning
So happy, that, this evening, another few more hours, I can see you again
Welcome back, dear ! Welcome back !!!!
Real looking forward to seeing you soon, in another 4 hours......................................
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Feeling Like Writing Something Today
Today, feeling like writing something ...................
Received a sms last night, an old old friends sent me his blog and invite me to pay a visit. Took a look at it. Hmmmm.................... quite well done, quite good piece of articles, just that everything is about politics, except one particular one which is about his ex-boss, for that particular sharing, I quite like it.
Don't know why, since years back, I don't really like politics, and I particular don't like those involved into politic fields. To me, it's just too dirty, it's just too playful, it's just too dramatic, too fake, too artificial, nothing is true. Now, I myself consider a part of it, although the whole team in my company tring to deny that we ARE not involved in political thinggy, but nonetheless, the image that we have in the public, is something that we can't avoid or deny. What to do ????
Everytime, when people ask what do you do ? After I answered, the next question must be, which company are you working for ? My god ! After my answer, the sure next question : Ong Kah Ting, your boss arr ? You work for MCA arr ? You are MCA member arr ???? Hey, I hate this. I work in this company is because I like what I am doing, or rather to say that, I like the campaign concept.
The more I involved in my work, the more I realised that it's nearly impossible to achieve what I want to achieve here. It's totally not what I expect from the original, what I want to do is quite far away, coz everything has its hidden agenda. It's a political games, it has its all reasons to do what it wants.
Recently, after ' freezing ' my boss, it seems like it's no more fun working in this company, want to resign, don't know where to go, what can I do. Not resign, don't know what's the meaning of continuing working here. For no reason, every morning, come to office, thinking of 6pm, waiting to go home. Really has no fun, this kind of life style.
Hmmmm.................... where am I now ? Hey, I should talk about my friend who has just started a new blog, not about myself.
My this friend, he is still very ' hot ' and enthusiastic about his launching of the new blog, I think it's first time for him to write a blog. Quite good response, some regular friends are with him, support him and be his ' blog ' fans. Response actively to his sharing and comment. Good start ! Keep it up ! I write this purposely to encourage him to continue his blog, anyway, it's also for a particular political reason - hidden agenda too..................................
Well, " Jia You " !!!! Keep up the good work, my friend !!! All the best !!!
Received a sms last night, an old old friends sent me his blog and invite me to pay a visit. Took a look at it. Hmmmm.................... quite well done, quite good piece of articles, just that everything is about politics, except one particular one which is about his ex-boss, for that particular sharing, I quite like it.
Don't know why, since years back, I don't really like politics, and I particular don't like those involved into politic fields. To me, it's just too dirty, it's just too playful, it's just too dramatic, too fake, too artificial, nothing is true. Now, I myself consider a part of it, although the whole team in my company tring to deny that we ARE not involved in political thinggy, but nonetheless, the image that we have in the public, is something that we can't avoid or deny. What to do ????
Everytime, when people ask what do you do ? After I answered, the next question must be, which company are you working for ? My god ! After my answer, the sure next question : Ong Kah Ting, your boss arr ? You work for MCA arr ? You are MCA member arr ???? Hey, I hate this. I work in this company is because I like what I am doing, or rather to say that, I like the campaign concept.
The more I involved in my work, the more I realised that it's nearly impossible to achieve what I want to achieve here. It's totally not what I expect from the original, what I want to do is quite far away, coz everything has its hidden agenda. It's a political games, it has its all reasons to do what it wants.
Recently, after ' freezing ' my boss, it seems like it's no more fun working in this company, want to resign, don't know where to go, what can I do. Not resign, don't know what's the meaning of continuing working here. For no reason, every morning, come to office, thinking of 6pm, waiting to go home. Really has no fun, this kind of life style.
Hmmmm.................... where am I now ? Hey, I should talk about my friend who has just started a new blog, not about myself.
My this friend, he is still very ' hot ' and enthusiastic about his launching of the new blog, I think it's first time for him to write a blog. Quite good response, some regular friends are with him, support him and be his ' blog ' fans. Response actively to his sharing and comment. Good start ! Keep it up ! I write this purposely to encourage him to continue his blog, anyway, it's also for a particular political reason - hidden agenda too..................................
Well, " Jia You " !!!! Keep up the good work, my friend !!! All the best !!!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Birthday Celebration 29.06.2008
Cheers !!! For me and my hubby ! Thanks Bee for being so detailed and caring, to prepare the cake and champagne. A surprise from the car booth !!!!
Picture 1 : This is my birthday lunch at one of the Chinese restaurants in Sungai Besar, a good lunch for 4 pax! Fried squid, my hubby's favourite, shark fin soup, sweet and sour crab with bun, thai style spicy steam fish and vegetable.
Picture 2 : See, CK is so good to help us to put the message into the bottle, he tried so hard to close the bottle and make sure no water will go in. Thanks CK for the hard work and thanks Bee for the great idea !!! It's really an unforgetable birthday celebration !!!
See this message written by the birthday girl, we put this piece of paper into the bottle, throw it into the sea, let it go wherever it wants, if someone pick it up and can understand what I have written, then will call me back, ha ! I think one day if I received such call, don't know where the caller will call from ? Hahhahahhaha.................... really ' soh ' !
This is really the ' Soh Loh ' and ' Soh Poh ' !!! Looking at the sky for what ?????
See my lao kong, so feminine, leg up, hand up leh .................................
Jump, jump, the photographer says, jump until he is happy with our action..................
No, dear, the photographer says look at the same direction, to the right lah .................... not left
Now, the photographer said, hey, ' Soh Poh ' or " Fei Poh ", jump higher lah ....................
This is real ugly ................... really ugly ................. yeak !!!!
The rice production factory ............. behind me are all the raw rice .......................
Wow ! Like holding gold sands on our hand .......................
My cute hubby !!!
His favourite post........................ ahahahahahhaa..................look at the sky ..................
How nice is this ? How many people can do this ???? hahhahahhaha..................
I have been throw birthday cake on my face by CK
Ever seen such big sunflower ????
The sunflower from Sekinchan .........................
Again, in the rice factory
Why repeat the almost same photo ?????
All of us at the singing restaurant, first time for Uncle Philip to come to such restaurant. It's also first time we celebrated our family's member birthday at a ' kwai lou ' restaurant !!! hahahhaa........... something different and special, I like it !!!
This is my birthday lunch at Sungai Besar - seafood cheap lunch !!! Shark Fin's Soup, my favourite crab with hot crispy bun, Asam Steam Fish, Vegetable and fried Sotong, yummy, yummy, only costs RM 118.00, unbelievable !!!! It's " Zhong Tai Seafood Restaurant " at Sungai Besar ! Go try it ! No regret one ! Cheap and Nice ! Recommended by Jin Xi, a friend from Sungai Besar.
This is the after burned rice field......... all black ..................... the model is about to jump, but the photographer says : " Hey, no 'sian' meh, only jump all the time "
Apple tree ................ in Sekinchan
Last year, today - 29.06.2007, I was with my boyfriend having dinner at Basil Leaf and he is proposing to me to marry him; this year, the same day - 29.06.2008, he is already my husband with 3 months married life. How fast time has passed !!!! Scary, man !!!
This year, my hubby brought me to Sabak Bernam for my birthday celebration. It's actually my suggestion. His original suggestion is Genting Highlands, a very commercial place which I don't like, so finally we chose to go for natural - paddy field and fishing village !
Our routing for that day is : OUG Home - Cheras Bee's House - Kepong Breakfast - Lembah Beringin ( Wrong Way ) - Bukit Pagar ( Wrong Way ) - Kuala Selangor - Tanjung Karang - Sekinchan - Sungai Besar - Sabak Bernam - then back to KL.
Some photo to share, it's a pity that I have forgotten to take picture for our dim-sum breakfast at Tuck Kee Kepong, nothing special, just for memory keeping purpose.
Uncle Philip Wong and his family bought a cake for us for the celebration. Thanks, Uncle Philip !!!
All of us at Kaki Corner Western Restaurant - mama's suggestion for a western style birthday celebration, something different !
Me and my Mr Right - a very very real nice Lao Kong !!!
My aunt - mother's sister - Ah Mei celebrated with us !
This is Judy - Philip's wife and my pretty mum !!!!
Uncle Philip who introduced Toastmasters for me and my ' leng chai ' father !!!!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Speechless...................
Dear, don't know since when, we both are speechless............................... we can't talk to each other anymore, once we start a conversation, we sure get involved with fights and quarrels at the end. What's wrong actually ? I really want to find out why. I really eagerly wanted to know what has go wrong with both of us.
Everytime, when I am in the office, I missed you so much and have a lot of things wanted to talk to you, but when I am homed, I see you with your long unhappy face, I have nothing to say already. Or else, after I made one statement, like my whole body was so pain, then you replied with " It's okay, go and take bath, it will go well. ". For these kind of answers, I really felt so scared and worried that how shall I formed my sentence and talked to you.
Like just now, you called me and I was so happy to answer your call and we talk happily at the beginning, but suddenly, the chemical becomes wrong suddenly and the ' war smell ' getting serious and serious, and again, we ended up with an unhappy ending of conversation again. I don't hope to have such feeling towards you, dear ! How I missed our previous time, those happy time where we can really talk anything that we like, without any hassle, without any quarrel. I really missed that !
Like Wednesday night, I eagerly waiting you to be homed and would like you to take me to pasar malam to buy fruits, we were so happy all the while until you saw the old newspapers that I took out, your face started getting black and long face, and the ' jek, jek, jek ' sound comes out already. I really HATE the ' jek, jek, jek ' sounds. Why you want to do that to me ? What's so worng with me to take those old newspapers to throw ? The old newspapers have been disturbing me from my cooking and even for me to place something on top of it, because it's too many and too high, I can't even place those woks that I washed for drying purpose. What's so wrong with it for taking it down to throw before we go for dinner ? It's really distracting. I don't know, because of this very small thing, just that 1 second, our whole night screwed up !!!! I ate my dinner with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. I can't slept for two continous nights already. The first night, you slept in the living hall, when I asked you to come in to the room to sleep, you " jek, jek, jek " again, I really hate that ! And the worst thing, after you ' jek, jek, jek ', you went out from the room and slept in the couch. I slept alone in the bed with tears that night .................. At 3.50am, I woke up and heard the TV sounds in the living room is so loud and you were not beside me, I knew you must have the TV to accompany you to sleep. I went out, looked at you, you slept well at the couch, I think twice and stunned for a while, if I shall call you to go into the room to sleep, I told myself, better don't coz just now experienced once already, kena scold and get the very heart pained feeling. So, I was so sad and don't like to see you sleeping alone in the living hall, I switched off the TV, lights off and go back to the bedroom to sleep. Tried my very best to sleep again, but can't, until you walked into the room at about 6am.
Second night, Wednesday night, was real sad, even for such a beautiful place for romantic dinner, I ate the dinner so hard and difficult, and can't sleep. Woke up again at 3.30am till morning. Was really thinking on what was happening between us. I was so curious and so upset, I love you so much, I love you more than before I married you, I asked myself, I tried my very best to perform the wife's duty, I tried my best to be a good wife, but then how come our relationship is getting worst and worst ????? A lot of questions in my mind ................ why, why and why ?????
You started come home late, it's ok, I waited you. You started become speechless................... we eat breakfast together on the same table by sitting next to each other so close, but yet our feeling was so far away. No one talking, it's a speechless morning & breakfast. You started have no topics to talk to me, you stared to stare at my at a very weird face expression, you started to keep quiet and don't know what to talk to me. Why, dear ? Can't we open up and discuss it. By hiding it, the balls will row bigger and bigger, I started feeling insecure about our relationship already, I started become so worried and so anxiety about our relationship. We got to do something about it before it is too late, dear ! Come on, we have been married only for 2 months .................................... That morning, I went office with two big panda bengkak eyes after long time crying .........................
I know, it's not only me suffering from the situation, you too, I can see from your face that you are not happy too, you are very unhappy, you too feeling not comfortable with me. Come on, let's work this out hand in hand, we still have a long journey to walk through together, we still have many many years to live together, please, dear, let's do something about it, do let me know what can we both do to enhance the situation and make both us back to those days us - the happy us !!!
For my side, from my very limited knowledge and experience, I really have no idea on how to handle this situation. The only thing that I have done for us is to pay and registered for a workshop for both us to attend, the one that I have mentioned to you earlier, the Thean Hou Temple call that you received this morning. I know completely that you hate this kind of workshop or talk, to you, it's a waste of time coz you know all the theory part. But then, dear, give me suggestion, do share with me what can we do to improve our relationship. I can only think of if we can't solve our problem, we listen to others and see how they solved theiw problems and we learn from there. What say you ?
Please, I beg you, please do not give up, please do not become speechless, please do not not to talk to me, please don't leave me sleep alone in the room, the feeling is too terrible, like get dump by someone, no one want me anymore, so pittyful and lost feeling. Really................... dear, give me a signal that you have read this and do agreed to work this out hand in hand for both benefits, ok ??????
Hope to hear from you by telling me that " Yes, lao poh, let's find out together how can we solve the problem, let's work hand in hand tightly to overcome this challenge. " I wait for you ........................
Not sure if you noticed, it has been two nights and three mornings that I didn't say " Good night, lao kong " and " Good Morning, Lao Poh " to each other already......................... I hope we can both sleep with a happy heart tonight............................
Endless Love For You from Your Lao Poh
Everytime, when I am in the office, I missed you so much and have a lot of things wanted to talk to you, but when I am homed, I see you with your long unhappy face, I have nothing to say already. Or else, after I made one statement, like my whole body was so pain, then you replied with " It's okay, go and take bath, it will go well. ". For these kind of answers, I really felt so scared and worried that how shall I formed my sentence and talked to you.
Like just now, you called me and I was so happy to answer your call and we talk happily at the beginning, but suddenly, the chemical becomes wrong suddenly and the ' war smell ' getting serious and serious, and again, we ended up with an unhappy ending of conversation again. I don't hope to have such feeling towards you, dear ! How I missed our previous time, those happy time where we can really talk anything that we like, without any hassle, without any quarrel. I really missed that !
Like Wednesday night, I eagerly waiting you to be homed and would like you to take me to pasar malam to buy fruits, we were so happy all the while until you saw the old newspapers that I took out, your face started getting black and long face, and the ' jek, jek, jek ' sound comes out already. I really HATE the ' jek, jek, jek ' sounds. Why you want to do that to me ? What's so worng with me to take those old newspapers to throw ? The old newspapers have been disturbing me from my cooking and even for me to place something on top of it, because it's too many and too high, I can't even place those woks that I washed for drying purpose. What's so wrong with it for taking it down to throw before we go for dinner ? It's really distracting. I don't know, because of this very small thing, just that 1 second, our whole night screwed up !!!! I ate my dinner with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. I can't slept for two continous nights already. The first night, you slept in the living hall, when I asked you to come in to the room to sleep, you " jek, jek, jek " again, I really hate that ! And the worst thing, after you ' jek, jek, jek ', you went out from the room and slept in the couch. I slept alone in the bed with tears that night .................. At 3.50am, I woke up and heard the TV sounds in the living room is so loud and you were not beside me, I knew you must have the TV to accompany you to sleep. I went out, looked at you, you slept well at the couch, I think twice and stunned for a while, if I shall call you to go into the room to sleep, I told myself, better don't coz just now experienced once already, kena scold and get the very heart pained feeling. So, I was so sad and don't like to see you sleeping alone in the living hall, I switched off the TV, lights off and go back to the bedroom to sleep. Tried my very best to sleep again, but can't, until you walked into the room at about 6am.
Second night, Wednesday night, was real sad, even for such a beautiful place for romantic dinner, I ate the dinner so hard and difficult, and can't sleep. Woke up again at 3.30am till morning. Was really thinking on what was happening between us. I was so curious and so upset, I love you so much, I love you more than before I married you, I asked myself, I tried my very best to perform the wife's duty, I tried my best to be a good wife, but then how come our relationship is getting worst and worst ????? A lot of questions in my mind ................ why, why and why ?????
You started come home late, it's ok, I waited you. You started become speechless................... we eat breakfast together on the same table by sitting next to each other so close, but yet our feeling was so far away. No one talking, it's a speechless morning & breakfast. You started have no topics to talk to me, you stared to stare at my at a very weird face expression, you started to keep quiet and don't know what to talk to me. Why, dear ? Can't we open up and discuss it. By hiding it, the balls will row bigger and bigger, I started feeling insecure about our relationship already, I started become so worried and so anxiety about our relationship. We got to do something about it before it is too late, dear ! Come on, we have been married only for 2 months .................................... That morning, I went office with two big panda bengkak eyes after long time crying .........................
I know, it's not only me suffering from the situation, you too, I can see from your face that you are not happy too, you are very unhappy, you too feeling not comfortable with me. Come on, let's work this out hand in hand, we still have a long journey to walk through together, we still have many many years to live together, please, dear, let's do something about it, do let me know what can we both do to enhance the situation and make both us back to those days us - the happy us !!!
For my side, from my very limited knowledge and experience, I really have no idea on how to handle this situation. The only thing that I have done for us is to pay and registered for a workshop for both us to attend, the one that I have mentioned to you earlier, the Thean Hou Temple call that you received this morning. I know completely that you hate this kind of workshop or talk, to you, it's a waste of time coz you know all the theory part. But then, dear, give me suggestion, do share with me what can we do to improve our relationship. I can only think of if we can't solve our problem, we listen to others and see how they solved theiw problems and we learn from there. What say you ?
Please, I beg you, please do not give up, please do not become speechless, please do not not to talk to me, please don't leave me sleep alone in the room, the feeling is too terrible, like get dump by someone, no one want me anymore, so pittyful and lost feeling. Really................... dear, give me a signal that you have read this and do agreed to work this out hand in hand for both benefits, ok ??????
Hope to hear from you by telling me that " Yes, lao poh, let's find out together how can we solve the problem, let's work hand in hand tightly to overcome this challenge. " I wait for you ........................
Not sure if you noticed, it has been two nights and three mornings that I didn't say " Good night, lao kong " and " Good Morning, Lao Poh " to each other already......................... I hope we can both sleep with a happy heart tonight............................
Endless Love For You from Your Lao Poh
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Choice Of Words In Communication
Recently, I realised thoroughly on the importance of " Choice Of Words " in life or in communication. My current Manager, is a very knowledgeable and caring person, he always shared with us the importance of " Choice Of Word " in daily life, he emphasized it to us on and off, he practised it in his daily life, he even correct our " Choice of Words " many times.................. He acts like a Grammarian in my life, on my poor English sentence construction and vocabulary. I must thank him for being so willing to share and to correct me on my mistakes. I appreciated it very much.
From his succeed in his communication with people, his relationship with others ( ex-colleagues, people around him, anybody even cleaner or passer by like a waiter in the restaurant, he also practise his good PR and " Choice Of Word " everyday, every minutes in his daily life ). I actually learnt a lot from him and I take him as my role model in life. I exampled him as my mentor, for my problem, my language barrier, my life phylosophy and etc. Of course, he is not perfect, he also has his shortage but still, overall, he is a nice old man to be friend.
The best part of him is he likes to compliment people, he loves to praise people, no matter when, where and doing what. For example, he will praise me when he walked into office " Hey, you look very fresh this morning ! Morning fresh ! " with a smile, that's made my day ! Not because that I crave for his compliment, just that by having such statement, he makes someone feel good and really fresh.
He always start his conversation with good words / praise or compliments first. Like everytime before he starts his conversation, he will say something like this : " Your centre looks pretty neat, you must have spent a lot of time in keeping it. " or " Mr Khung, from your outlook, I believe you must be a very experienced and professional trainer who really care of self image as your first impression to me was really impressive ! ". Things like this, really make people feel fantastic !!!
He is good at this skill. I really learnt a lot from him secretly and after working with him for sometime, I noticed that I started care and mind my language already. I will notice sometime after I said something, I found that I could construct my sentence in a better phrase and make the people who is listening to me to feel better, eventhough for a comment or recommendation to others, we could also tell it in a very sweet way. Aren't we learn this from Toastmasters too ??? Yes, we learnt how to give constructive feedback to members, we learn to evaluate people in a nice way, not white washing, but a real sincere feedback without hiding any facts, the real message have been conveyed and at the same time, didn't hurt people.
I try to sharpen my " Choice of Word " in my daily communication too in order not to hurt the people around me, especially my hubby !!! This morning, I got hurt again by his sharp words................... " My mum only has one box, you don't even can tolerant with this ? " What is this .............. I took so much trouble and effort, sweat, pain to clean up the Store Room, at the end, I got only this comment from my loved one. How hurt it is ???? Aren't we both also Toastmasters, aren't we practise what we learn in Toastmasters in life, especially the evaluation style in Toastmasters. Still remember the " G.L.O.V.E " concept that you share with me ? Or the burger concept apply in Toastmasters ?
Dear, shall we start to practise this in our daily life too ? This is not about ruling, it's more towards a better relationship. I care of you so much, very much, that's why I care of everything you do for me, every words you say, it's not I want to give you pressure like has no even freedom to talk and have to be careful when talk to me, just that do care about my feeling, I felt hurt easily, this is because I care so much.
Many times, in the morning, I was angry with you quietly, but everytime, when I walked into our bedroom, I saw you have helped to make the bed neatly, all my anger went off immediately. The same happened this morning. Everytime I looked at the bed, I told myself, what to angry anymore ? I have such a good and caring husband, who there to help to make bed in the morning, who helped me to cut vegetable, who helps to pick up my hairs drop in the toilet, who cooked me ' yong sam sou ' when I am sick, who cared of me so much, who takes the trouble to purposely come down to the car park to fetch me, who bought my favourite fruit - Dragon Fruit for me as a surprise gift, who massage me after I finished all the house work, who washes dishes after dinner, who made cereal for me in the morning, who eats vegetables that he doesn't like, who forcely finished whatever I have cooked just to make me happy and to appreciate my effort to him, who cares so much of me, what more to complaint ? What more to comment ? I am ' xin fu ' enough to have such a husband with me for my rest of life ..............................really, dear, many times, I was so happy when I walked into our bedroom, everytime I stepped into the bathroom, really, all these small action or effort in life do counts, it counts, I feel so sweet many times because of all these small small contributions that you have done for me, it really affects, I care of all these, it makes a difference in our life, it do makes me love you more and more and more ..............................
From his succeed in his communication with people, his relationship with others ( ex-colleagues, people around him, anybody even cleaner or passer by like a waiter in the restaurant, he also practise his good PR and " Choice Of Word " everyday, every minutes in his daily life ). I actually learnt a lot from him and I take him as my role model in life. I exampled him as my mentor, for my problem, my language barrier, my life phylosophy and etc. Of course, he is not perfect, he also has his shortage but still, overall, he is a nice old man to be friend.
The best part of him is he likes to compliment people, he loves to praise people, no matter when, where and doing what. For example, he will praise me when he walked into office " Hey, you look very fresh this morning ! Morning fresh ! " with a smile, that's made my day ! Not because that I crave for his compliment, just that by having such statement, he makes someone feel good and really fresh.
He always start his conversation with good words / praise or compliments first. Like everytime before he starts his conversation, he will say something like this : " Your centre looks pretty neat, you must have spent a lot of time in keeping it. " or " Mr Khung, from your outlook, I believe you must be a very experienced and professional trainer who really care of self image as your first impression to me was really impressive ! ". Things like this, really make people feel fantastic !!!
He is good at this skill. I really learnt a lot from him secretly and after working with him for sometime, I noticed that I started care and mind my language already. I will notice sometime after I said something, I found that I could construct my sentence in a better phrase and make the people who is listening to me to feel better, eventhough for a comment or recommendation to others, we could also tell it in a very sweet way. Aren't we learn this from Toastmasters too ??? Yes, we learnt how to give constructive feedback to members, we learn to evaluate people in a nice way, not white washing, but a real sincere feedback without hiding any facts, the real message have been conveyed and at the same time, didn't hurt people.
I try to sharpen my " Choice of Word " in my daily communication too in order not to hurt the people around me, especially my hubby !!! This morning, I got hurt again by his sharp words................... " My mum only has one box, you don't even can tolerant with this ? " What is this .............. I took so much trouble and effort, sweat, pain to clean up the Store Room, at the end, I got only this comment from my loved one. How hurt it is ???? Aren't we both also Toastmasters, aren't we practise what we learn in Toastmasters in life, especially the evaluation style in Toastmasters. Still remember the " G.L.O.V.E " concept that you share with me ? Or the burger concept apply in Toastmasters ?
Dear, shall we start to practise this in our daily life too ? This is not about ruling, it's more towards a better relationship. I care of you so much, very much, that's why I care of everything you do for me, every words you say, it's not I want to give you pressure like has no even freedom to talk and have to be careful when talk to me, just that do care about my feeling, I felt hurt easily, this is because I care so much.
Many times, in the morning, I was angry with you quietly, but everytime, when I walked into our bedroom, I saw you have helped to make the bed neatly, all my anger went off immediately. The same happened this morning. Everytime I looked at the bed, I told myself, what to angry anymore ? I have such a good and caring husband, who there to help to make bed in the morning, who helped me to cut vegetable, who helps to pick up my hairs drop in the toilet, who cooked me ' yong sam sou ' when I am sick, who cared of me so much, who takes the trouble to purposely come down to the car park to fetch me, who bought my favourite fruit - Dragon Fruit for me as a surprise gift, who massage me after I finished all the house work, who washes dishes after dinner, who made cereal for me in the morning, who eats vegetables that he doesn't like, who forcely finished whatever I have cooked just to make me happy and to appreciate my effort to him, who cares so much of me, what more to complaint ? What more to comment ? I am ' xin fu ' enough to have such a husband with me for my rest of life ..............................really, dear, many times, I was so happy when I walked into our bedroom, everytime I stepped into the bathroom, really, all these small action or effort in life do counts, it counts, I feel so sweet many times because of all these small small contributions that you have done for me, it really affects, I care of all these, it makes a difference in our life, it do makes me love you more and more and more ..............................
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Always Expect The Unexpected
This title - Always Expect The Unexpected - has really reminded me of my very very long time philosophy, which I have nearly forgotten. Always expect the unexpected to be happened in life.
Yes, if all of us manage to live life without any expectations, then everyday is a happy day. I have really forgotten about my this philosophy. Last night, after my Toastmasters Meeting, once I got on to my car, I can't wait to hear my darling's voice. Called him while driving. He sounded so excited on the phone by asking me where was I. I told him I just started my journey back home from my Club and it will take a while.
With this small question from my dearest hubby, I EXPECT him expecting my arrival at home. I was so happy and wish to reach home faster. After I turned into the Guard House, I drove slowly and kept my eyes around, trying to capture the body shape or face that I was eagerly wish to see. Looking around, eyeing around by driving damn slowly, not next to the Guard House, not next to any cars in the covered car park, hmmmmm............ until I reached my car park lot, still I didn't see anyone around. Ok, then I told myself, he might be slow a bit as I told him I won't be arriving so fast................... so, I quickly get down of my car and walked towards the lift. The street seems very dark and quiet as usual, which I hate this kind of feeling. Too quiet, too scary to me as I seldom or I avoid to reach home after the sky gets dark as I hate to walk alone to the lift.
As I was walking towards the letterbox area, I still didn't see him. Then I think, he might be hiding somewhere and try to scared me and play with me, I kept walking and turn around to see my left and right, front and back. Ok, very sure, there is no one around. Ok, my last expectation is he might afraid that he might missed me, then he is waiting for me at the lift.
Nope, no one around again. Another disappointment ! Okay, I told myself again, he might think that I might be late coz it's quite a distance from my Club back home. Lift is coming down from 13th Floor, 10th floor, 8th floor, my another expectation is telling me to EXPECT the lift might stop at 3rd floor and I might be able to see my hubby's face once the lift opens. Oh oh ! Nope again, another disappointment !!!! The lift opens and no one was inside the lift.
OK, then I wish I could reach home safely coz it's really late at night already. The lift door closed and oh oh, I hate this, I hate to see this, the lift stops at 1st floor, the door opens and the thing that I hate happened, a man, an Indonesian thin man walking towards the lift and he stood next to me, hate to have this kind of feeling, alone in the lift, with an Indonesian guy. I told myself, not to be scared, as two more floors, I will be reaching my home. The lift door closed, oppppsss.......... nope, how come the guy didn't pressed the floor number that he wish to go, hmmmm.......... suddenly, the news in newspaper came into my mind, nope, nope, don't think of all the bad things, nope nope nope ................... before the lift door fully closed, I have hope. Someone outside was trying to come in, I was so happy that someone could be with me in the lift......... I quickly press the ' open ' button and see who was there outside. Firstly, I saw a man's shirt, oh no, don't tell me that there is another Indonesian guy coming in .............. nope nope nope..................... please, don't .............................. huh !!!! After a second of negative thinking, I saw a familiar face, it's Jacky, the Nasi Lemak shop owner. I was so glad that he accompanied me in the lift and escort me home. Thanks, Jacky !
But still, the Indonesian guy still didn't press the floor that he wants to go................ then my feeling tells me again that he might be the neighbour who stays opposite our house, those Indonesian family. The lift door opens, I walked out and he also followed me walked out, I walked towards my house direction, he also walked towards the same direction, I kept turning my head behind to see if he is taking a key, if yes, that means he is staying here, otherwise......................... luckily, yes, he is our neighbour next door. Huh ! So relief ! I was so relief and I quickly open my house door and went into my house.
I then only saw my lovely hubby coming towards the door to welcome me. Huh ! But suddenly, due to all the ' pressure ' or ' stress ' in the lift, my emotion again lost control and I complaint or scolded my hubby for not coming down to fetch me. His face turns black immediately........... and went into the room without saying anything............... I also don't know since when he becomes so narrow hearted and gets angry easily........................
Then, I spotted that two persons were in the house, no one cares at all what is happening in the house. The shirt racks that I pulled into the living hall in the morning before I stepped out to work, were there remained. No one cares to even open the glass door and let some fresh air coming into the living hall, no one cares to bother to pull the shirt rack to the balcony, it is just like it's okay, no problem............................... remained everything and just pretend didn't see.
I walked into my room, the curtain has never been opened, again, no one cares.................. immediately, my temper comes and can't control my face muscle and it just go down and long, my face turns black again. As I was having fever since I was in the club meeting and kept on coughing and have running nose, I quickly get myself settled down by washing my face, bath and so on. My hubby didn't even ask a word and just lying down on the bed, I know he is angry with me.
But I know he is still trying his best to figure out what has happening to me and why my face was long and black, he tried to tackle me by saying : " Dear, can you please come over and let me hug you ? " Wow ! I was waiting for this statement everyday, how nice if everyday my hubby have such request. How much I grave or how much I wish to hear this everyday - again, another EXPECTATION ...................... but sorry, my dear, you requested it at the wrong timing, my running nose was so serious at that time, I can't even control my running nose as the water keeps coming out from my nose, and I am in fever. The only thing that I wish to do now is to wash my face, shower and then take medicine. OK, I know, you got angry with me again for not attending to your request and just told you to wait for a while. But I really can't tahan with my uneasiness and my sickness, dear !
Then you start mumbling yourself, again, turn your body to the other side and sleep. I really can't tahan this kind of action, this kind of reaction to me, come on lah, be a bit understanding, be a bit caring, be a bit detailed and asked at least : " What happen, dear. Not feeling well ? " Nope, nothing from you at all, except another long black face turning your body towards the other side of the bed and sleep.
You saw me eating medicine and without asking any question. My anger was boiling and I can't tahan. OK, finally, after I quickly get myself ready and go to bed and try to get myself cool down and talk to you, as I know, I was wrong at the first point as I shouldn't show you my temper once I stepped into the house. So, I am ready to say sorry to you.
I look at your backside, you didn't move, I called you once " Lao Kong ", no response. I waited for a while, " huuuu.................. huuuu.................. " the snooring sounds is the only voices in the room. I know you don't care and what can I do, it's all my own EXPECTATION, I shouldn't have such EXPECTATION by EXPECTING you to ask me : " Dear, how's your meeting ? " " What gets you so angry ? Anything happen ? Mind to share with me ? " " Who bully you, tell me and I will settled for you ? " " Why you eat medicine ? Not feeling well ? Wanna me to bring you to see doctor ? "
No, nothing from you at all, except the snooring sound. I know, I shouldn't have such EXPECTATION.
That's why I told you this morning that it's my very own problem, I need to settle it myself, I need to learn how to control my emotion in order not to make you angry.....................
But I asked myself another question : " If the only man in my life don't care about me or if I can't EXPECT the man who sleeps next to me on all these small little things, who else can I EXPECT ???? or who else shall I share all my happiness and sadness to ?????????????
I EXPECT you know the only person in this world who could affect my emotion is ONLY YOU ! I EXPECT you know there is nothing happen in this world could make my temper changes, except YOU !!!! Still remember, whatever happen in my office or Toastmasters or my family, I will share with you, on good or bad thing, I have never throw my temper at you for all these things, except YOU could juggle my emotion .................. dear, you might not realised yet how important you are to me...............................................
Zero Expectation Is Always The BEST !!!!!
This title - Always Expect The Unexpected - has really reminded me of my very very long time philosophy, which I have nearly forgotten. Always expect the unexpected to be happened in life.
Yes, if all of us manage to live life without any expectations, then everyday is a happy day. I have really forgotten about my this philosophy. Last night, after my Toastmasters Meeting, once I got on to my car, I can't wait to hear my darling's voice. Called him while driving. He sounded so excited on the phone by asking me where was I. I told him I just started my journey back home from my Club and it will take a while.
With this small question from my dearest hubby, I EXPECT him expecting my arrival at home. I was so happy and wish to reach home faster. After I turned into the Guard House, I drove slowly and kept my eyes around, trying to capture the body shape or face that I was eagerly wish to see. Looking around, eyeing around by driving damn slowly, not next to the Guard House, not next to any cars in the covered car park, hmmmmm............ until I reached my car park lot, still I didn't see anyone around. Ok, then I told myself, he might be slow a bit as I told him I won't be arriving so fast................... so, I quickly get down of my car and walked towards the lift. The street seems very dark and quiet as usual, which I hate this kind of feeling. Too quiet, too scary to me as I seldom or I avoid to reach home after the sky gets dark as I hate to walk alone to the lift.
As I was walking towards the letterbox area, I still didn't see him. Then I think, he might be hiding somewhere and try to scared me and play with me, I kept walking and turn around to see my left and right, front and back. Ok, very sure, there is no one around. Ok, my last expectation is he might afraid that he might missed me, then he is waiting for me at the lift.
Nope, no one around again. Another disappointment ! Okay, I told myself again, he might think that I might be late coz it's quite a distance from my Club back home. Lift is coming down from 13th Floor, 10th floor, 8th floor, my another expectation is telling me to EXPECT the lift might stop at 3rd floor and I might be able to see my hubby's face once the lift opens. Oh oh ! Nope again, another disappointment !!!! The lift opens and no one was inside the lift.
OK, then I wish I could reach home safely coz it's really late at night already. The lift door closed and oh oh, I hate this, I hate to see this, the lift stops at 1st floor, the door opens and the thing that I hate happened, a man, an Indonesian thin man walking towards the lift and he stood next to me, hate to have this kind of feeling, alone in the lift, with an Indonesian guy. I told myself, not to be scared, as two more floors, I will be reaching my home. The lift door closed, oppppsss.......... nope, how come the guy didn't pressed the floor number that he wish to go, hmmmm.......... suddenly, the news in newspaper came into my mind, nope, nope, don't think of all the bad things, nope nope nope ................... before the lift door fully closed, I have hope. Someone outside was trying to come in, I was so happy that someone could be with me in the lift......... I quickly press the ' open ' button and see who was there outside. Firstly, I saw a man's shirt, oh no, don't tell me that there is another Indonesian guy coming in .............. nope nope nope..................... please, don't .............................. huh !!!! After a second of negative thinking, I saw a familiar face, it's Jacky, the Nasi Lemak shop owner. I was so glad that he accompanied me in the lift and escort me home. Thanks, Jacky !
But still, the Indonesian guy still didn't press the floor that he wants to go................ then my feeling tells me again that he might be the neighbour who stays opposite our house, those Indonesian family. The lift door opens, I walked out and he also followed me walked out, I walked towards my house direction, he also walked towards the same direction, I kept turning my head behind to see if he is taking a key, if yes, that means he is staying here, otherwise......................... luckily, yes, he is our neighbour next door. Huh ! So relief ! I was so relief and I quickly open my house door and went into my house.
I then only saw my lovely hubby coming towards the door to welcome me. Huh ! But suddenly, due to all the ' pressure ' or ' stress ' in the lift, my emotion again lost control and I complaint or scolded my hubby for not coming down to fetch me. His face turns black immediately........... and went into the room without saying anything............... I also don't know since when he becomes so narrow hearted and gets angry easily........................
Then, I spotted that two persons were in the house, no one cares at all what is happening in the house. The shirt racks that I pulled into the living hall in the morning before I stepped out to work, were there remained. No one cares to even open the glass door and let some fresh air coming into the living hall, no one cares to bother to pull the shirt rack to the balcony, it is just like it's okay, no problem............................... remained everything and just pretend didn't see.
I walked into my room, the curtain has never been opened, again, no one cares.................. immediately, my temper comes and can't control my face muscle and it just go down and long, my face turns black again. As I was having fever since I was in the club meeting and kept on coughing and have running nose, I quickly get myself settled down by washing my face, bath and so on. My hubby didn't even ask a word and just lying down on the bed, I know he is angry with me.
But I know he is still trying his best to figure out what has happening to me and why my face was long and black, he tried to tackle me by saying : " Dear, can you please come over and let me hug you ? " Wow ! I was waiting for this statement everyday, how nice if everyday my hubby have such request. How much I grave or how much I wish to hear this everyday - again, another EXPECTATION ...................... but sorry, my dear, you requested it at the wrong timing, my running nose was so serious at that time, I can't even control my running nose as the water keeps coming out from my nose, and I am in fever. The only thing that I wish to do now is to wash my face, shower and then take medicine. OK, I know, you got angry with me again for not attending to your request and just told you to wait for a while. But I really can't tahan with my uneasiness and my sickness, dear !
Then you start mumbling yourself, again, turn your body to the other side and sleep. I really can't tahan this kind of action, this kind of reaction to me, come on lah, be a bit understanding, be a bit caring, be a bit detailed and asked at least : " What happen, dear. Not feeling well ? " Nope, nothing from you at all, except another long black face turning your body towards the other side of the bed and sleep.
You saw me eating medicine and without asking any question. My anger was boiling and I can't tahan. OK, finally, after I quickly get myself ready and go to bed and try to get myself cool down and talk to you, as I know, I was wrong at the first point as I shouldn't show you my temper once I stepped into the house. So, I am ready to say sorry to you.
I look at your backside, you didn't move, I called you once " Lao Kong ", no response. I waited for a while, " huuuu.................. huuuu.................. " the snooring sounds is the only voices in the room. I know you don't care and what can I do, it's all my own EXPECTATION, I shouldn't have such EXPECTATION by EXPECTING you to ask me : " Dear, how's your meeting ? " " What gets you so angry ? Anything happen ? Mind to share with me ? " " Who bully you, tell me and I will settled for you ? " " Why you eat medicine ? Not feeling well ? Wanna me to bring you to see doctor ? "
No, nothing from you at all, except the snooring sound. I know, I shouldn't have such EXPECTATION.
That's why I told you this morning that it's my very own problem, I need to settle it myself, I need to learn how to control my emotion in order not to make you angry.....................
But I asked myself another question : " If the only man in my life don't care about me or if I can't EXPECT the man who sleeps next to me on all these small little things, who else can I EXPECT ???? or who else shall I share all my happiness and sadness to ?????????????
I EXPECT you know the only person in this world who could affect my emotion is ONLY YOU ! I EXPECT you know there is nothing happen in this world could make my temper changes, except YOU !!!! Still remember, whatever happen in my office or Toastmasters or my family, I will share with you, on good or bad thing, I have never throw my temper at you for all these things, except YOU could juggle my emotion .................. dear, you might not realised yet how important you are to me...............................................
Zero Expectation Is Always The BEST !!!!!
Monday, May 5, 2008
Since Long I Didn't Write My Blog ....................
Hey, all my Blog friends ! How's everybody ? ( It seems like I have a lot of Blog fans .............. hahhahhaah.............. in fact, only myself............... even my hubby also didn't log on to my Blog to read )
Really a lot of things happen recently in life. My last update on the Blog was far behind on 3rd August 2007 where I am still a girl and now, I am writing at an identity of Mrs Wong. Yes ! Within this half year, from August 2007 till May 2008, I have made a very big decision for my life - to marry a man !!!
Hhahhahaa............. as such, I am now no longer " Miss " or ' Girl ', I am a woman ( real woman ) whom carrying someone's surname in front of mine. Or in Chinese, I am now been called as " Ah Soh " or " Aunty " loh......................
Life has changed tremendously after married. For example :
1. Shopping still on, just that visit different stalls. Previously, I went shopping at Mid Valley for shirts, blouses, pants, skirts and etc; now I go Tesco or Giant or Carrefour to compare prices on vegetables, canned food, garlic, milk, Milo and etc.
2. Lunch time : Previously during lunch time I always think of a new place / restaurant to bring my colleagues over for new food or new exploration but now, lunch hour, I have no time to even eat but to buy grocery things or to prepare for my dinner by going to MyDin or Giant to do shopping.
3. Previously, during weekends, I sleep till late and do nothing / go shopping / go for good food / movie, but now Saturday and Sunday is my busy day on house work, cleaning, washing, sweeping, cooking, ironing, mopping and etc.
Not only the above, there are real a lot of difference between a single life and a married life. How to get used to another family's culture ? How to be a good wife and daughter-in-law ? How to be tolerance and compromised between each other ? How to control my emotion towards unhappy things happened in life and so forth.
Have been married and staying at a new house, I still remember, for the first night in the new house, I cried like hell, so sad, so pityful and so unhappy. Just for a simple reason : I missed my parents, I missed my brother, I have home sick ! Coz I didn't feel the same love in the new house. Things changed too fast until I can't cope and get used to it.
A lot of tears have been flowing through my face recently - all over some small minor issues in life............. I got to really learn how to be tolerance, compromise and be happy towards my new life.
Time to go home to cook now, got to keep my blowing feeling for next time.
Cheers ! Hope all my family members and friends are happy !!!
Really a lot of things happen recently in life. My last update on the Blog was far behind on 3rd August 2007 where I am still a girl and now, I am writing at an identity of Mrs Wong. Yes ! Within this half year, from August 2007 till May 2008, I have made a very big decision for my life - to marry a man !!!
Hhahhahaa............. as such, I am now no longer " Miss " or ' Girl ', I am a woman ( real woman ) whom carrying someone's surname in front of mine. Or in Chinese, I am now been called as " Ah Soh " or " Aunty " loh......................
Life has changed tremendously after married. For example :
1. Shopping still on, just that visit different stalls. Previously, I went shopping at Mid Valley for shirts, blouses, pants, skirts and etc; now I go Tesco or Giant or Carrefour to compare prices on vegetables, canned food, garlic, milk, Milo and etc.
2. Lunch time : Previously during lunch time I always think of a new place / restaurant to bring my colleagues over for new food or new exploration but now, lunch hour, I have no time to even eat but to buy grocery things or to prepare for my dinner by going to MyDin or Giant to do shopping.
3. Previously, during weekends, I sleep till late and do nothing / go shopping / go for good food / movie, but now Saturday and Sunday is my busy day on house work, cleaning, washing, sweeping, cooking, ironing, mopping and etc.
Not only the above, there are real a lot of difference between a single life and a married life. How to get used to another family's culture ? How to be a good wife and daughter-in-law ? How to be tolerance and compromised between each other ? How to control my emotion towards unhappy things happened in life and so forth.
Have been married and staying at a new house, I still remember, for the first night in the new house, I cried like hell, so sad, so pityful and so unhappy. Just for a simple reason : I missed my parents, I missed my brother, I have home sick ! Coz I didn't feel the same love in the new house. Things changed too fast until I can't cope and get used to it.
A lot of tears have been flowing through my face recently - all over some small minor issues in life............. I got to really learn how to be tolerance, compromise and be happy towards my new life.
Time to go home to cook now, got to keep my blowing feeling for next time.
Cheers ! Hope all my family members and friends are happy !!!
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